Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Happy heart day !!

I haven't blogged in ages. With two babies and working full time I have basically no free time at all - but we are happy and healthy and thankful everyday.
Mary Jacinta's adoption was finalized December 21, and it was the smoothest adoption ever I feel like. Our lawyer was AMAZING and it was was finalized before I could practically blink, exactly 4 months from her birthdate. What a Christmas present she is! Her birthmom is proving to not want as much contact as we would like (which surprised me how much we want it!) and we are having problems with her eating (she is barely 10 lbs @ 6 mos). She gags, sometimes pukes so hard it comes out her nose and she gasps for breath- so scary- and I worry about her weight gain everyday but we get an A for effort that's for sure. Sometimes it takes her an hour to get 3 oz down. It's so upsetting when all you want to see is an empty bottle and a full baby...She is such a great baby other than not eating well. She talks non stop especially when Blake talks to her and she loves to watch Benjamin and smile at him.
Benjamin is such a happy baby which is so different from his first 6 weeks when all he seemed to do was eat and cry. He is the perfect baby and he is totally enamored with his sister which is so precious to watch. He coos, smiles, squeals at her - I will post a video soon.
I feel like I lost my job at the greatest job ever- a stay at home mom. I loved every second of my 13 weeks at home. I only left to go to mass ;) and when January 3 arrived I felt such sadness. I can't even describe it. It was like I was missing an arm or leg. I cried every morning until about 2 weeks ago but it is still hard. The only thing that makes it easier is knowing my mother is there taking care of them or Blake if he isnt working due to the weather. I get butterflies every afternoon thinking of seeing them again. I keep thinking to myself "we must have insurance, our insurance is only $75 a month, we need my insurance". But we still buy lotto tickets in hopes I can quit!! And I know I'll be Sooooo glad I have this job in four years when I get to see my kids all day long at school and teach them too so I keep on keeping on.
Happy Valentines Day to you all and my prayers are with all of you!

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