CD1 among other things.

Today is CD1 which means I have little time left before ttc overwhelms me again. My RE said we could try again after one cycle after this last hysteroscopy. I am nervous, but have faith. This will be the first month ttc after my cleansing trip to Lourdes and Fatima. Our Lady is going to protect our next little one, I just know it. JBTC sent me a beautiful St. Andrews novena rosary and the very next day a co-worker (who suffered with RPL) gave me the St. Andrew novena prayer saying that the two times she conceived in December saying the novena gave her 2 healthy girls. I feel strangely calm about it this time. We have too many people praying for us!

One of the Sisters fo the Missionaries of Charity called me while I was on my pilgrimage and left a message about a doctor in Georgia for me to contact. This doctor helped another volunteer of theirs in Atlanta with her IF and also RPL and Sister thought she might be able to help me too. I googled her name and found stellar reviews (excepting one who complained that she wouldn't give her the pill ). I am not sure if she is Napro, but she is a Catholic pro life obgyn.

I wrote a lengthy, descriptive letter about our past almost 2 years of pregnancies and miscarriages, tests and surgeries, and asked if she could help me or if she thought I was doing all that I could do. She called me Wednesday and we talked for a good while. She said she thought I was in great hands and have done everything that should be done. She said the only thing she would do differently is to have my anti-thyroid antibodies checked and maybe a round of doxycycline in December before ttc again but I had antibiotics pumped through the iv during my last hysteroscopy so that it was not needed. I called my RE about the anti-thyroid test and the nurse said I didn't need that test because all my thyroid tests were normal. ???

Thanksgiving was a day of gluttony, pure and simple. It was such a wonderful day of family and food. We went to mass then had lunch at my inlaws around noon. We then ate again with my family around 6. So....2 full meals, and I mean full, and I had leftovers last night after shopping from 7 am to 8 pm - I was EXHAUSTED, but got all gifts save a couple of people so it was worth it to be able to relax the rest of the holiday season!

Last Thanksgiving was so hard, I remember (ashamedly) taking Loritab leftover from my DC a couple weeks before to make it throught the day of seeing all my tiny neices and nephews. I spent the better part of that day on the couch reading blogs and researching probability of pregnancy after miscarriage on my phone. This year was much better. There was only one low moment after dinner when my SILs were both discussing how there were not ready to to have other children yet, they were avoiding it for now, and how there was a limited window of time left to have them. I am 3 years older than one of them and DESPERATELY trying to not avoid having a baby so this discussion was upsetting so I left to start the dishes....

DH has gone to the deer camp for the rest of the weekend :( but he is so very excited which makes me so excited for him. When I came home last night, the house was beautifully lit up with lights, garland, and the Christmas decorations out of the attic. I have a busy day ahead of me but looking forward to it too. We will be getting our tree Sunday afternoon and I can't wait to have the smell of evergreen wafting through our home for the next few weeks. Pure bliss....